"She's pretty - but nerdy, awkward, and unforgivably boring."
You know, I've been called boring since ever since I can remember. Granted, I don't drink, smoke, or go clubbing or anything. I don't make judgments about people who do - I think that's why it bothers me so much when people make judgments about me because I don't. The truth is that I don't mind spending Friday nights at home. I don't mind spending any nights at home for that matter.
I don't think I'm boring because I'm honestly never bored with my life. In high school, I tried being the kind of person who went out a lot, always kicked it with friends, went to all the dances - I was miserable. I always saw these people in high school who were out late at night, who smelled like smoke and alcohol in class, and it made me sad for them, because they seemed miserable too, but they thought they were making themselves better.
Awkward nowadays? It's just the codeword for someone who's not a skanky, who isn't overly sexualized and can act normal around people. Yeah, I'm awkward. I don't like being put in social situations with people who make me uncomfortable. Who does?
And nerdy? I won't lie, that's true. And it's the one thing about myself that makes me the happiest. I'm lucky that the right thing and the things I enjoy doing happen to be the same things, and I know I'll end up better for it.
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