100th Post!!!

And I really have nothing of consequence to say, so to commemorate my 100th post, you'l get a long rant in true Vicky fashion. =)

Anyway, I'm starting to realize that the way I see my life is different - I'm the kind of person who doesn't like to have fun until things feel secure; I'm not the kind of person who likes things to be done hastily. I like things to be done right.

I'm starting to realize that I've grown less and less happy with myself, the more like everyone else I try to be. Now that I've stopped being so self-deprecating when I compare myself to others, I feel like things have changed.

I have the worst stage fright in the world, and yesterday, I went to voice class and sang that sucker like there was no tomorrow - my palms were sweaty as hell and I thought my knees were going to give, but for the first time, I didn't want to try and find a way out of being noticed.

I've also figured out that while humility is important, it shouldn't be a defense mechanism. That isn't healthy. It's not New Year or anything, but I've made a resolution to myself to accept that it doesn't make you a bad person to admit that you're better than some, as long as you don't believe you're better than everyone. It's a step up from the way I used to feel, like I was a the fish at the bottom of the barrel that only was bought after everything else was gone.

I also realized that it doesn't kill you to say things that people are going to disagree with - and the people who say they're disappointed in you simply because of what you believe are people who need to do some growing up before anyone can truly consider them a friend.

So yeah - I don't even know when I learned all of this, but I do know that I didn't know it before.

I have a new layout coming out soon, once my muse stops being all dead and whatnot. =)

P.S.

Obama '08 & Yes on Prop 8!