Like a fat kid loves cake...

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Guys are guys sometimes. I know Erik didn't really mean what it sounded like. But I mean, any girl kinda sees where I'm coming from. It seems so archaic and sexist that I'm so conscious of my own body, but it's one of those things that I can't even help. Even when I know and am fairly convinced of all the other formidable things about myself, talking about my appearance is still my Achilles' heel. And speaking of Achilles...

Ironically, the whole conversation started talking about Brad Pitt's buffness in Troy. Damn you, Brad Pitt. You knock down my self confidence, and you leave Jennifer Aniston. You ought to be ashamed of yourself, Mr. Pitt. Absolutely ashamed.

That is all.

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I didn't think he'd be the one who'd come out and call me fat.

I was finally happy with how I looked, and suddenly now because he's buff and back in shape, the way I look isn't good enough for him. I liked him better when he still thought he was fat, at least he was still a nice guy. Now, suddenly he'd be happier if I changed how I looked.

I like the way I look now. I don't want to get skinnier, I'm happy with myself the way I am - or at least I was. Now I'm not so sure.

He said it would be sexy if I went down to 100 pounds, and that 90 pounds would be "acceptable." - I'm 5'4", so you can't tell me that a number like that isn't excessive. Just FYI, 90 pounds is dangerously underweight for my height, so if dangerously, life-threateningly underweight is acceptable, more power to you. That would probably require me to amputate my boobs and ass too, because I can assure you, at least 5 pounds of my weight is located in those areas.

So you know what? If he's not happy with how I look, then maybe I'm not happy with how he looks. Maybe the thought of him getting any buffer actually disgusts me. He thinks he's the authority on what's "too fat" and what's not just because he's had no choice but to get buff? He doesn't need to tell me what I'm supposed to look like.

A) I was "fatter" than this when we first started going out
B) When I lost weight because of step aerobics, he complained that my ass and boobs shrank.

So based on that, it sounds like he wants me to have about a 30-pound liposuction. Then a boob job.

Well, I personally think I'm fine the way I am.