It Came As A Surprise.

It's funny, comparing myself today to the way I was before I met Erik.

I hated dating - I even hated the idea of dating. I think the grand total of dates I ever went on before meeting Erik was...

ONE.

xD

And I just didn't feel anything clicking. I wanted somebody who could talk to me without seeming affected, who I could see being my friend at the same time as being my significant other. I wanted someone who appreciated me, and didn't get in my way. As harsh as it sounds, I thought that seeing somebody would just slow me down, because no guy in their right mind would appreciate that I was smart, and I prided myself on that more than I did on how I looked.

Everyone seems so surprised that I'm married at this age, and so am I - because I never thought I'd be so lucky. I'm happy that I don't have to deal with dating, and worrying about other guys anymore. It was like a lightning strike, the fact that Erik and I found each other and ended up together. I don't connect with people easily, and I don't think I'd be able to give anyone a chance like this again

The only reason I opened up to Erik was because I could tell he was a good person - far from perfect, but so much less affected than any of the other guys trying to catch my eye at the time. It's not every day when you come across a relationship where it's merely one good person wanting to be in the company of another good person that they trust not to hurt them.

For him, it was never about impressing me - just about being real and making me smile. It was about walking me to my classes and talking to me before trying to get my number. Erik has always made me feel loved because from the very beginning, I could tell that he just liked me - eventually, loved me - just as a person, just for being me.

No one ever made me feel that, and no one else will ever have the chance to.