Eeep!

Ok, so I'm at school right now, but I'm just in one of those moods - sitting through people's speeches gets me to thinking, I guess, only not about whatever they're speaking about.

Anyways - about 2 and a half months until the big day. I'm actually starting to freak out - In a good way, I think. But sometimes, I really feel awestruck that this is all happening. There are so many kinks left to iron out as far as where mine and Erik's lives are going to go, but I still think that everything's working out as it should. I mean...ok, let's be honest. Before Erik, I went on one real date my entire life, and it was boring as heck. I checked out guys, but actually flirting with them or hanging out with them as more than just friends bored me to tears.

Erik was always different, right from the very beginning, because he wasn't mayabang (heh, I can't even come up with the proper English word for that right now), and he just made me happy. He wasn't fake, and I always felt like it was okay to be natural, and to be myself.

Anyways...I was just looking at the statement for our joint account, and I felt this weird sort of gushy feeling in my stomach. Okay, so it's only made less than a dollar of interest since August, but still. It just gave me that weird butterfly feeling, because it's something that's just ours. Haha, wow. I love how he makes me into such a sentimental idiot, and I'd never change that, not in a million years.

I'm good right now. My mood's like a roller coaster lately, but still. I'm good.

Except for the fact that my internet at home is busted for some reason or another, and I know it's not my cable, because I just got a new internet cable. So hmph.

I'm done dealing with drama queens now - I've come to the realization that while they are few, there are some people in the world who are truly worthless human beings who have yet to reach the stage of evolution where they acquire a conscience. I mean, come on - you'd be pissed, obviously, if a baboon bit you, but you wouldn't try to appeal to its conscience, because it probably doesn't have one. So, oh well. To me, she is a baboon. Once the novelty of being such a bitch wears off, she'll go back to picking fleas out of her rear end and maybe popping out little baboon babies with whichever mate will take her.

Now, anyways, I left my wallet at home andd have absolutely no cash, so no food for me today! Haha. I'm gonna go sit out in the non-existent sun and read.

I'm a nerd. Shut up and have a nice day.

=)